I try to figure it out all the time. Self-assess, self-evaluate. Ask questions.
I still don't know why I feel this way.
It makes me feel good when I saw him. But why? Actually, he got nothing that I will be interested. Not handsome. Guess not well educated. Don't have 'important' or 'noble' job. He's a hard labor worker.
This happens for quite a long time, maybe around five to six years? It's stupid. I don't want to have any interaction with him. Don't want to talk to him. No. Why I feel good when I saw him? It's hard to explain.
